God of my heart

If God is all loving, why do i love men instead of God

why do i keep fall, why do i have to go through such heartbreak

knowing the love is not reciprocal. 

God, can i have a love that's reciprocal.

can i have the love through you ; a partner that mirrors you?

oh God, my heart is grieving. grieving for the one that my heart wants a love. a desire for love. 

help me to seek you, you are love. you are love.

a love that never fails. a love that is always enduring.

a love that comforts. a love for a soul longing.

i am empty. let it be fill.

fill by your presence.

fill by your spirit.

fill by your love

fill by your comfort

fill with your peace

let my soul longs after you.

Monday is a sch day ._.

Tmr sch le~ as usual..every monday i dont feel like wake up in the morning...i always skip de bt now le is i get tio surat amaran yang ke-dua~ ahh so sucks!! i need to b rajin also i need help from my bf CAUSE ..sch is makin me sick day by day >[So this is mostly i been thru every nite] the end..

Unexpected day...

today i wake up at 6.30am. i check my hp gt sms..its from my sis she say she stay ppl hse. then ok lo tot need wake up early and go out. i wait my sis joey coz she slp then tink wait she fetch me go out...so i play pc til 10/11++ then slp wake up at be4 1pm. heard my both sis say 1 tired, 1 cant fetch me. feeling so sad...i cry..dunoe why 2day ..no drink,no eat(im fine)also nw im sad, and i cry. wanted slp bt cant. today life is sucks 2 me. jz nw go out buy food + my face kinda sad. my sis know i sad + cry.. dun wan ppl know why. ppl ask i feel they annoyin coz keep ask when i do nt want them to know....